This is a blip

Will I ever be ok?

They say I will.

They say this will pass.

I don’t believe them.

I get worse and worse and worse.


Unable to function much at all yet aware that there is further to fall.

I’m scared of the fall.

I’m so scared about dying.

I don’t want to die. 

Especially not in a violent, painful, bloody mess.

If I just knew that there is a future.

If I could just believe what they tell me but they lie.

This is a blip they say.

My whole fucking life is a blip.



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